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Im Five by Five
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SUMMER TIME
35c its pretty hot out! Damn i need a drink!!!!!

My Stalkers!






~Clubs~

So ya I ic for the megadeth contest! lol! yay!
But man I really hate how i get like no views on my shit! ever! the most i get is like 6 view per deviation! Poo! But ya i'm gonna have alot more up right away here so dont you guys worry ur pretty lil heads! ok well Twa La

Shout to muh best bud*mwah!*

i wuv you so muchly!

So ya im gonna be havin up alot of fan art in the next lil while and well of course stuff from me as well....but ya wow has life gotten weird in the last lil bit! It just seems like this isnt real and that im some kind of a alternate universe! Its like nothings the way its supposed to be, but then again when is it ever? I dunno.....but ya im so happy im in love and there's nothing anyone can do about mwah hahaha! lol but ya lifes been good for me so far!....and right now im going through some serious self mental therapy....that includes meditation,relaxation and breathing excersises, dream recolation, Yoga,and reading a self help book called "Whats wrong with me? Well Nothing" Its a book that talks about ways to boost a positive self image, and its actually starting to work to, cuz doing all this stuff, im not getting down on myself as much im starting to be a happier person...its kinda weird to lol, and doing the Yoga ...[shiffty eyes] Im getting more flexable[wink wink nudge nudge] And im gonna hafta thank my dearest and best friend he's pushed me towards this for i dont know how long, always trying to get me to be happier...and due to recent events and long loooooooooong talks with my best friend i've come to a realization....That life is to short to be feeling sorry for yourself, you've got to live life, not hate life, you've got to look at all the things in your life that you love and realize you have heaven on earth, I know it sounds so incredibly stupid, but when im with the man I love it is heaven on earth...I love him and always will...Thank you so much...I know you're reading this And thank you

Well ummm hmmmm....wow a whole fucking lot has happened in the last lil bit! like omg! some it though can not be put down on here! But ya working a job right now that im makeing a shit load of money at....Somebody told me something that I almost needed to hear[and i almost couldnt belive it when they told me] Some friends have completly ditched me....and yay! christmas is comeing! hurray! But ya theres nothing that could bring me down! Im way to happy! Its like everything is starting to look up from here! And OMG! I cant wait to get my best friend his christmas present! I cant wait to see the yay expression on his face when he gets it! hes so cute when he makes that face! lol! but omg yes im lovin life! Oh and those changes i was talking about in my last journal some have happened some havent but oh well give it time ok well good night!

PS hope you like my new pic!

So ya in the last little while my whole life has come crashing down around me and I dont know what to do....................
Things have come out that shouldnt have feelings have been brought to light that should have stayed in the dark.....and ppl that i have no idea why i miss them but i do....in the next little while im going to be makeing some changes to my life....ok well alot of changes.....the ppl around me may not understand...but I hope that they dont get mad at me for doing them.....But I have to do them if im going to be happy with my life and with me.....im not going to explain the changes im about to go through so they'll be a surprise to everyone around me.....the little girl you all knew will be laid to rest and a woman is going to emerge from the ashes.......these changes are also going to affect my art work as well.....the childish cartoony pics are going to stop and i'll have more adultish works of art....this doesnt mean thats it going to be porn or anything it just means its going to be more adult oriantated.....ok well thats all I have to say so.....good night